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[charlottezweb]

I hate being frustrated so much. I don't mean being in a situation where I become frustrated, although those usually suck, but the feeling of frustration enrages me. I handle it very badly. Note the understatement. I tend to break things--phones by slamming down the receiver, keyboards by jamming the keys, etc. I want so much to learn to deal with it better and I've learned that if I can find a solution, then it's ok, but if I can't, then whoa nelly. I just went to get lunch-now I have 30min to procure lunch and that's not very long--I have to drive somewhere, pick it up and then drive back, and theoretically, I should be eating it in that 30min as well. So I'm usually at  a drive through, etc. Today I decided to pick something up from the bagel place. First it took them forever to get my  order done, so that when I got it, looked at it and realized it was an entirely different sandwich, I had no time to get it fixed. Cue blinding rage. Telling someone else about it always makes me feel better, so even as I'm typing I feel myself growing calm and able to think this will be funny when I tell someone else later.

But right now, stuck with an inedible sandwich made of things I'm allergic to, it just seems like I'm out cash and doomed to be hungry today.